I don't want to make this something I'm going to regret, but I've gotta get it out.
What's so wrong with me that my parents have to hide me? Why do people have to ask twice about what gender I am, even after I tell them? Why do my parents correct people who refer to me as male?
I'm still my parent's daughter, and I'm scared that'll never change. Is being transgender really such a terrible thing?
The worst part is that I have no one to talk to. I'm alone because neither my mom or dad want to talk about it. They don't want to acknowledge it's existence because it's shameful to them.
They're still trying to convince me this isn't want I want. That it's a phase and I'll get over it. It hurts. It hurts that I sat in front of them and sobbed just telling them about it, and they still don't listen.
It's getting hard to fight against them when I've got no one fighting for me.
Maybe I should just go back into the closet.
Oh no, I'm so sorry. :(
ReplyDeleteI'm commenting late again, but have you looked into support groups where you live for people who are transitioning? This post makes me sad for you, I accept you for who you are, and I wish others in your everyday life (outside of the Internet) to accept you too.