I don't want to make this something I'm going to regret, but I've gotta get it out.
What's so wrong with me that my parents have to hide me? Why do people have to ask twice about what gender I am, even after I tell them? Why do my parents correct people who refer to me as male?
I'm still my parent's daughter, and I'm scared that'll never change. Is being transgender really such a terrible thing?
The worst part is that I have no one to talk to. I'm alone because neither my mom or dad want to talk about it. They don't want to acknowledge it's existence because it's shameful to them.
They're still trying to convince me this isn't want I want. That it's a phase and I'll get over it. It hurts. It hurts that I sat in front of them and sobbed just telling them about it, and they still don't listen.
It's getting hard to fight against them when I've got no one fighting for me.
Maybe I should just go back into the closet.
Friday, May 29, 2015
Tuesday, May 26, 2015
Long Time, No Posts
I'M SO SORRY ITS BEEN FOREVER SINCE I'VE POSTED!
And with that, comes a few major updates that I'd like to share!
First off, I'll be graduating high school as of June 17th. Unfortunately I'm graduating as a girl since that's what my parents would want of me, so I figured I'd make them happy.
More about my parents: They're still in denial. Mom is asking me why I don't shave my legs and when I tell her I need new shorts she just tells me that the shorts I have are fine. They're all short girl shorts. So it's really a terrible feeling that Mom and Dad are ignoring the fact I'm trans and just hoping it'll go away.
I also got a new binder! Yes, my old one was too small and was hurting my chest so I went without a binder for a few weeks or so. But now I've got my new one and it fits perfectly! Please guys, if your binder is too small don't wear it. You don't want rib, lung, ect. problems later on!
On a sad note, I've got to give my hedgehog away because college doesn't allow pets and no one wants to take care of her.
And one last note, sorry I haven't been posting. I've been really sad over the past few months and I haven't had the motivation for a lot of things (this blog included). So I'm sorry if I don't post as much as I probably should. And for my next entry I'll try to find a topic that isn't just my updates!
Thank you all for reading! Feel free to email me at morwinslow@gmail.com or leave a comment below! No question is a stupid question!
And with that, comes a few major updates that I'd like to share!
First off, I'll be graduating high school as of June 17th. Unfortunately I'm graduating as a girl since that's what my parents would want of me, so I figured I'd make them happy.
More about my parents: They're still in denial. Mom is asking me why I don't shave my legs and when I tell her I need new shorts she just tells me that the shorts I have are fine. They're all short girl shorts. So it's really a terrible feeling that Mom and Dad are ignoring the fact I'm trans and just hoping it'll go away.
I also got a new binder! Yes, my old one was too small and was hurting my chest so I went without a binder for a few weeks or so. But now I've got my new one and it fits perfectly! Please guys, if your binder is too small don't wear it. You don't want rib, lung, ect. problems later on!
On a sad note, I've got to give my hedgehog away because college doesn't allow pets and no one wants to take care of her.
And one last note, sorry I haven't been posting. I've been really sad over the past few months and I haven't had the motivation for a lot of things (this blog included). So I'm sorry if I don't post as much as I probably should. And for my next entry I'll try to find a topic that isn't just my updates!
Thank you all for reading! Feel free to email me at morwinslow@gmail.com or leave a comment below! No question is a stupid question!
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