Bad Couple Of Weeks

It's been a rough couple of weeks.  Between mom denying that I'm transgender and struggling to get along with my parents it's been hard.

I've been trying my best to stay positive and ignore the negativity people have towards me but I'm getting kind of worn down from it all.  When someone makes a comment about me looking boy-ish Mom immediately comments stating that I make a much better female.  

In school I always hear people talking bad about transgender people and I would stand up and say something, but I don't want to look dumb standing up for the minority and risk being the target of future comments.  

For graduation Mom's trying to buy me a dress and even telling me I should invest in a weave or a wig and that I should just grow out my hair so it can be long and pretty again.  I just don't understand what I have to say to her for her to understand that saying these things really hurts and I'm not her daughter.  I don't want to be her daughter.  I want to be her son.

I'm just really glad I'm going away to college soon and I can be away from the negativity I face here and hopefully be at least a little more accepted.  

I'm trying more and more to feel better in my own skin.  I'm going to hopefully be buying boxers soon and getting a binder.  Plus, I'm hopefully getting my septum pierced on the 13th of April which is something to look forward to.

I'm sorry if this entry seems a bit ranty.  Thank you for reading though!  Feel free to e-mail me at morwinslow@gmail.com at anytime if you have a question or anything really.

Thanks!